So i was working on my lab report monday night. I was about 15-20 minutes from finishing it. all i had left to do was the post-lab questions and the conclusion and then print it off and i'd be all set for my 8am lab in the morning. So i went to paste the graphs I had been working on into the word document when all of a sudden, word started acting pretty funky. it randomly started copy and pasting random bits of text from my lab report in places they didn't belong and changing the formatting in weird ways. I tried deleting stuff and nothing really happened and every time i tried entering something new in, it would screw up again. thinking it was just a display error, i saved the document. at this point, word had replaced my entire document with 7000 asterisks. i rebooted word. the asterisks were still there. i rebooted my computer. the asterisks were still there. in a panic, i realized i had just lost the entire document i had spent 4 hours putting together. frantic, i emailed my lab TA explaining my condition and headed downstairs to the computer to start the process all over again on a reliable program. luckily, my TA decided he would give me an extra day to redo it and not count it as late. thank God. too bad that didn't help me at all to understand my prelab for that day.
that morning i woke up in a very bad mood. i had only gotten about 4.5 hours of sleep and was feeling pretty down. i started seriously reconsidering my major. i didn't really want to be an engineer in the first place and i'm not taking the field i wanted anyways. i just kept thinking "all i want to do is teach physics." i think i went through half the day with these doubting thoughts running through my head. that afternoon i took a nap and felt so much more refreshed and confident in myself. i don't think i will change my major after all. i'm just too determined to give up that easily. But what i did realize is that i don't have to expect perfection from myself. I will get along perfectly fine without completely stressing out over every assignment. i just need to take some time to get my thoughts in order and actually do my homework like i'm supposed to. things aren't going to come as easily as they did in high school and i have to let go of the high standards i have for myself and just let it come as God wills it. I'm not in control so i just need to let go and let God.
emily's trying to sleep now. poor thing's been sick all day. i'll post later about the Craig/Tooley debate. it was pretty funny, i think. :P
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