today.

ugh... i don't even know where to begin. today has just all around sucked. not to mention the fact that i'm not entirely sure this guy likes me or not. I mean, I would really like to date him and we seem like very similar people, I just feel like i'm putting way too much effort in this friendship for it not to be going anywhere. and the problem isn't him. I mean, he's really great and everything, I just don't think he's interested. and that's what scares me the most. I mean, yeah, we talk a lot every day, but i don't feel like i'm any different from the other zillion people he talks to. I mean, I hope I am, I'm just not getting any reassurance on the matter.

maybe i just need more time with him beyond schoolwork. because lately, whenever i've been with him, it was when he was doing homework and he wasn't very talkative or anything. I feel like this weekend is going to be the deciding factor on whether i keep trying to make something happen. If he doesn't go, well then i'm just screwed. If he does, then i can make a decision. I'm just want to know if there's any potential between us or not. When i get an answer to that question, then i can stop worrying.